Before Plantagenet - Chapter 109
June 1101 - Anjou, France
As Agnes stared at her reflection in the mirror, she did not know how to feel.
When she was a little girl, she dreamed of her wedding. She usually imagined it was to a handsome, youthful duke, or a count, even though her mother had long warned her that may never happen.
“You must realize that your husband may be an older man,” Beatritz had said. “But you must please him all the same.”
When she was a girl, Agnes would smile and nod. When she was a teen, she’d have a retort.
“That did not happen with you,” she’d say.
“I thought I was to end up on a convent,” Beatritz replied. “I was blessed. Your father still presented tests of his own, even if fulfilling certain wifely duties… has always been most enjoyable.”
Agnes remembered how red her mother turned upon saying it. She’d usually blush as well - it was strange to hear her mother talk of coupling with Foulques.
“But every husband will present tests for you,” Beatritz would say. “Whether a high-born lord, or a common man. How you handle such tests will decide whether you are a happy wife, or not.”
“And what are you, mother?”
“I am Duchess of Anjou, and mother to two beautiful children,” Beatritz replied. “I can not have asked for much more.”
She said that in her good moments, of course. When Alearde and Foulques’ bastard daughter Bella was born, Beatritz struck a different tune. But Agnes figured, for the most part, her mother had been happy with her lot in life.
So what awaits me?
To that she had no answer as her ladies attended to her, fixing her dress. Etiennette worked on her hair. Alearde prepared her makeup. She had to look her best for her wedding day.
As her mother had warned, it was not exactly as she had dreamed. It was no duke she was marrying, nor even a count. Instead, it was a mere courtier, Henri, son of her father’s chancellor Godfrey.
He was handsome enough and over a decade her junior though, so she would not be stuck as some others her age had having to please an old, withered husk of a man.
She had heard Henri was actually rather chaste - Alearde had not heard a peep of him even approaching the ladies or the servants. That had made Agnes question if he had other tastes, but they had heard nothing on that either.
It just seemed he was one who followed the strict teachings of the church.
He may struggle to fit in with my family, she thought as a grin formed on her lips.
That looseness would be on display today on her face, as Alearde applied a reddish blush to her cheeks.
“What will Bishop Hildebert say when he sees me with all of this red on my cheeks?” she wondered aloud.
“He will bow his head, think something foul of you and say nothing,” Alearde said. “He already does not have the highest opinion of you.”
“Is he not the one who will be performing the ceremony?” Etiennette wondered.
“He is,” Agnes replied. “He may not like me, but he is a loyal hound. My father instructed it - so it will be done.”
“Makeup seems like a silly thing to worry over,” her aunt Aureade noted. “Should one not look their best?”
“It’s something about vanity being sinful,” Haldora added. “But then, I do not see the bishop walking around in tattered robes. They take great care to look as if they are lords themselves.”
Agnes smirked. She had a full complement of women around her today - almost every noblewoman courtier in Anjou wished to be with her as she prepared for her wedding. She was, after all, the most powerful woman in the duchy.
Not all were admitted, but Agnes did allow a fairly robust group. In addition to Alearde and Etiennette, Agnes’ own daughter Beatrice was present, as was her half-sister Ermengarde, Etiennette’s bastard daughter by Gilles. There was also Aureade, Etiennette’s sister Margot, Alearde’s daughters Bella and Hildegarde, Agnes’ soon-to-be mother by law Helie and Duchess Haldora. The duchess was the only one who did not move about - she remained in her chair, shifting positions to find comfort. Her belly was great with child and she expected to give birth any day now.
“I do wonder what people did before the church,” Agnes continued. “It must have been awful for the people of Rome to be cast down into hell for all of these small sins they had no idea they were committing.”
“I would suspect their worship of heathen gods proved a larger issue,” Helie replied. She looked back to Haldora. “No offense, dear.”
Haldora rolled her eyes. “My family have been Christian for a few generations now, you realize. You Franks believe every story you hear of my people? Did you also expect me to arrive with an axe in one hand, shield in the other?”
Agnes noticed quite a few of the ladies trading glances. Haldora also seemed to take notice and shook her head.
“Terrible,” she replied.
The good news was that Agnes doubted Haldora was too offended. She took things like that in stride - after all, she had far bigger grievances these days.
Agnes would never admit it to her father, but she did rather enjoy her stepmother. They had grown a bit closer since Agnes had vouched on her behalf in Melun - they often dined together now when Foulques was away.
And it was with her in mind that Agnes’ half-sister, and Etiennette’s daughter, Antoinette, was not allowed in the room. Etiennette was displeased, but understood.
There was a knock at the door. As Agnes was being prepared, she motioned for someone to answer it. That someone was Helie, who opened the door to peek her head out. She pulled it back to relay that the visitor was a messenger from Aquitaine. Agnes allowed him in.
He no doubt was sent by Geoffrey, who declined to attend. Her brother claimed he was on campaign in Saintonge - likely a few days away - and had sent word that he could not leave his army.
Believable, if from her father. For her brother, who did not like combat, she had her doubts.
His confession in Anjou loomed large. She wondered what his response was when he learned of the news she would be wed, especially so soon after his visit. But she did suspect his lack of attendance was his response - so what news would this man bring her?
The messenger bowed before her. She nodded in acknowledgement and he rose once more.
“My lady, I come to you from Aquitaine,” the man said. “At the behest of your brother, the duke.”
“What does Geoffrey wish of me?”
“Nothing except to accept his deepest regrets that he is unable to join you on this joyous day,” the man said. “He is with his men in Poitou. But he sends you a gift. You should be able to see it from your window.”
Curious Agnes, she broke free of Alearde and Etiennette and moved her way over to the lone, small opening in the chamber. The other ladies did so as well.
The window was not large, so the view was somewhat limited. But there in the yard were multiple casks of wine. That was hardly a surprise, but what Agnes did not expect to see was a peacock, strutting beside the cart.
“Oh my goodness!” she said as her hand covered her mouth. “Where did he find that?”
“He bought it from a trader who works in Greece, my lady,” the man replied.
“So beautiful,” Alearde said.
“Such a lovely gift,” Etiennette added.
Haldora managed to push her way through. “It looks… delicious.”
The ladies turned to look at her. The Northwoman scrunched her face before arching her back as if to accentuate her pregnant stomach. “I am hungry these days. Every bird looks like food.”
Agnes smirked and turned back to the man. “Thank my brother for this. Alearde, give him some coin.”
The man held his hand up. “My lady, there is more. Your brother has requested I recite a message he has sent for you.”
Agnes felt her stomach clench. “Is… it a private message?”
“No my lady,” the man said. “Lord Geoffrey, sends his regards. He prays for the success of this union and your happiness. And though he regrets that he cannot be beside you on your wedding day, he has no doubt that you are the most beautiful and elegant bride the realm has seen in sometime. As always, you are beloved both here and abroad, my lady.”
It was such a thinly-veiled love note, Agnes could barely restrain herself from chasing the messenger from the room. As it was, her hands shook, her eyes were wide and she could feel herself tremble.
That fool will ruin us.
But as she looked at her ladies, none looked suspicious. Quite the opposite - they all seemed to be swooning.
“Such a charming boy,” Aureade noted.
“Something he must have gotten from his mother,” Haldora added.
Alearde gave the man his coin and Agnes kept her head long enough to thank him again as he departed. The door was closed behind.
“Geoffrey, Geoffrey,” Agnes said as shook her head.
“Honeyed words for you, sister,” Bella said.
“Imagine what he must say to those he beds,” Helie added.
“I would not mind finding out,” Margot said.
Quite a few of the women blushed at that. A couple had sly grins, including Etiennette, who had not been dismissed as Foulques lover, but saw much less of him these days, and, much to Agnes’ surprise, Haldora. In fact, the duchess closed her eyes and a few moments later, her grin became a full-on smile.
Agnes rolled her eyes and then took a peek back at Alearde, who was also grinning. That was enough.
“Ladies,” Agnes interrupted. “That is my brother you discuss. Who is married to a woman in this keep.”
“My apologies, my lady,” Margot said. “I did not mean to insult you, Lord Geoffrey or the Lady Marguerite.”
“It is fine Margot,” Agnes said. “But we must not forget our place as ladies, even in private. We never know who might be listening.”
A true statement, though in this case, it was unlikely she and Alearde did not control that. Little information from the women in the keep, noble or otherwise, escaped their ears. It was merely unnerving to hear such things spoken about her brother.
She held her piece though, at least until she was finished being made up. Then she asked for a moment alone with Alearde, and after the ladies departed the room, she frowned at her old mentor.
“I saw your grin too,” Agnes said.
“Grin?” Alearde asked.
“Over Geoffrey,” Agnes replied. “When Margot said she would not mind laying with him.”
Alearde smirked. “Oh, that.”
“Oh that?” Agnes demanded. “Such glib remarks over my brother. If it were to be acted upon…”
“It won’t because it is idle thought,” Alearde said. “Your brother is handsome, charming and powerful. His discord with his wife is well known. It is no surprise many of the women here have thoughts of him.”
“Margot has already laid with a married man, my cousin in Berry, and has a bastard to show for it,” Agnes replied. “So that she might act on those thoughts is not unheard up. And if nothing else, they are sinful thoughts.”
Alearde glared at her. “How is your makeup, my lady? I know your daughter thought you very pretty.”
Agnes’ frown became a scowl.
Alearde continued. “
If they worry about having such thoughts, they can confess them to a priest. But they are thoughts. Nothing more. Do you truly believe Haldora would dare lay with your brother now? Your father would likely kill her for that. Nor do I think Geoffrey would dare risk his alliance with your father in such a manner.”
Agnes raised her brow. Alearde replied with a shrug of her shoulders.
“I doubt he carries the same feelings for Haldora or Etiennette that he does you,” Alearde said.
Agnes noticed Alearde lips were pursed. She wanted to say something else, but restrained herself.
“Speak your mind,” she said.
“It is not something that should be said,” Alearde said.
“I expect you to say everything to me,” Agnes said. “I have never wanted you to hold anything back.”
Alearde sighed. “Did hearing them speak of your brother so, make you jealous?”
Agnes’ eyes widened. “NO! Of course not! It just reminded me of… his already poor behavior with women. And It bothers me others would desire to be used in such fashion.”
“You are surprised the duchess desires a man who might shower her with affection, who is younger than your father, may become as powerful, and has a face?” Alearde asked.
“When you put it like that…” Agnes replied.
“Here is how I shall put it to you,” Alearde continued, “put your brother far from your mind. This is your day, not his. And Anjou is more yours than his, for now. We will deal with Geoffrey when he is duke - and we will know how to deal with him then.”
Agnes was not as certain.
Alearde patted her back and escorted her to the mirror. She stood behind her, but placed her head over Agnes’ shoulder to get a good view.
Agnes looked at herself. Her hair was done up in tight buns with a covering on the top of her head. The makeup had made her cheeks rosy, a contrast to her pale complexion. Red was her theme - she also wore a long dress of that color, though the shawl covering her chest was off-white.
It almost did not seem to be her, as she stared at her reflection in the mirror. That just made her stomach churn even more.
But Alearde smiled.
“So pretty,” she said.
……
The ceremony was all a blur.
One moment, her father walked her down toward where Henri stood. The next minute Bishop Hildebert was delivering some words. The mass took so long that her feet ached, but it seemed to have passed by quickly enough where she did not remember feeling bored. But then she also remembered nothing of what was said, only the nervous look on her new husband’s mustached face.
Is he afraid of marriage? Afraid of me? Afraid of what’s to come? Does he not find me pretty enough?
She tried her best to shake it off. This was a political marriage as much as anything else - a way to shore up her position. Chancellor Godfrey would be steadfast ally now, perhaps as strong as Mayor Guilhem was to her.
In truth, she was surprised her father had approved of the union. Alearde had suggested it to her, and she had in turn suggested it to Godfrey, with the idea of dropping the suggestion to Foulques in casual conversation, perhaps jokingly at first. But Foulques seemed fine with the idea - and here she was.
Perhaps because I grow old, father is settling.
That doubt could not be dismissed, no matter how hard she tried. But she knew this union meant she would remain in Anjou. It meant she would keep her power. And that was the important thing.
And it was not as if Henri was a lowborn man. He was the grandson of the late Count of Boulogne and nephew to the current one on his father’s side. One his mother’s he was the nephew to Hugues of Burgundy. That also made him the great-grandson to the late Duke Robert of Burgundy, and thus great-great grandson to a king.
Still, she could not completely shake her doubts.
“I do not know if this is a wise decision,” she said when she discussed it with Alearde at the time.
“You need a husband,” Alearde said. “Your importance to your father and your brother puts you in peril when you travel outside of Anjou. Many would scheme to abduct you and force you to marry a man of their choice.”
Alearde then lowered her head. “And… it would be good to have an outlet for your desires that will not be looked upon with scorn should a child be born.”
“You seem to have managed just fine,” Agnes noted.
“I am no one,” Alearde said. “It matters who I lay with, not that I do. You, it is the opposite.”
Agnes remembered sighing out of resignation - she knew it was true. As much as she’d prefer to stick to her strapping son of a blacksmith, she knew the problems that could arise.
But she did remember having a question for Alearde. “Did you… ever wish to be married?”
Alearde took a moment before responding. “Once… after your mother died. I wished to be your father’s wife. He obviously chose differently.”
Agnes lowered her head. “I am sorry. You would have been a fine mother to us.”
“I already am,” Alearde said with a small grin. “But I am not bitter over it. It proved for the best. Your father would not look at me as he does now if I was his wife. He wishes he could have me. If I were to return to him… he would treat me worse than he does now.”
“But you would have been duchess…” Agnes blurted out. She grimaced at saying it.
“I think that sometimes,” Alearde said. “Then I look at Haldora and see what that is worth.”
You would not have been Haldora, Agnes thought, though she was wise enough to keep that quiet.
But it was clear now that marriage would not be in Alearde’s future. And despite that also appearing the case for Agnes over the years, it was now very much her present.
The feast was as much a haze as the ceremony. The hall did feature two prominent dignitaries - Hugues of Burgundy had come. That was not the most unexpected - his political situation in Burgundy was perilous with the Countess Almodis putting pressure on him with her rebellion. He likely hoped to find as much favor and friendship as he could, even coming to the wedding of his nephew to the daughter of a man he did not have the most harmonious relationship with.
The other was a bit of a surprise as she had no connection with either family. But Queen Sybille herself was in attendance.
She had come with a guard of knights and her ladies - which meant Ness was present as well - but the king was not with her. The queen had told Agnes she had to join her on this day - after all she had done for the realm. It was a humbling moment - a flush, warm feeling that made Agnes weak at the knees that was also one of the clearer moments of the day.
To have the favor of a queen!
Aside from the queen, she remembered a mess of faces, nothing of what each individual said. She noticed her nephew seated by her father - odd given his age, but she noticed her father beginning to show plenty of favor to the younger Foulques. There were even rumors he might take him back to Melun.
Geoffrey will not be pleased.
But that was his own fault.
He shirked his duty to his family. This is the result.
Alearde’s advice again came to mind. She closed her eyes and tried to put him far away.
Easier said than done, she realized.
“He is handsome,” Sybille whispered to her.
It snapped Agnes back from her thoughts. The queen had a sly grin on her lips as she eyed Henri. But her eyes were more… hungry - as if she wished to devour him herself.
“Yes…” Agnes replied. “You think him handsome?”
“Very,” Sybille said. “I think you will enjoy him very much. But one word of advice, my dear - savor it. He will not be young forever.”
As the queen took a drink from her goblet, it was clear it was a not so thinly veiled shot on her husband.
“The king is ill,” Agnes said.
“Yes, a reminder that youth and health are fleeting,” Sybille replied. “Like I said, enjoy him while you can.”
Agnes pursed her lips and then turned to her new husband, seated beside her. At some point he should lead her to their bed to consummate their union. But Henri barely had spoken to her at all - he seemed almost frightened to do it.
He should be eager, Agnes thought.
Perhaps he does think little of me.
It would not be the end of the world if he did - she still technically had Cedric after all, even if she had told him her visits would be far less frequent now that she was wed - but her ego was bruised nonetheless.
Her new father-in-law seemed to take notice. The chancellor whispered something to Henri and the boy’s eyes widened. But he nodded before standing up and offering Agnes his hand. She took it and he led her away from the feast in the main hall and toward their chambers for the evening.
The room had been prepared by servants, with candles already lit and the bed made. The one remaining woman bowed before them and then departed, closing the door and leaving them alone.
Henri stood before her, but motionless. Like a statue.
Does he not know what to do, she wondered.
She removed her hair piece and then dropped her dress to reveal her body to him, and his eyes again widened. But he did not do much else. Agnes sighed.
“So, you do not like what you see?” she asked.
“No, I mean yes, I do,” Henri stammered. “You are quite beautiful. I’ve always thought so.”
She could not tell if he tried to save himself with empty flattery.
“Here I am then, your wife,” she replied. “You can act on your desires.”
Henri nodded. He approached slowly and again paused as he came up close to her. His brow furrowed, he appeared in deep thought. Finally he leaned in for a kiss.
Limp, weak… unconfident.
“That is not the most convincing kiss,” she told him.
“I’m sorry,” Henri replied. “I… do not truly know what is proper and right to do in this situation.”
“I am your wife,” Agnes said. “What you desire is ultimately right.”
She regretted saying that - she did not need to cede that much power so quickly when it was unnecessary. And yet, it seemed to do little to change the expression on Henri’s face.
“What… what would you like?” he asked.
And suddenly it dawned on her - he was not saying he did not know what to do because he had too many ideas, he was admitting he had none.
“You have never been with a woman before?” Agnes asked him.
Henri shook his head vociferously. “Never. It would be sinful to couple with someone before marriage.”
Agnes’ brow rose. “So you must think awful things of me.”
Henri gulped. “No, of… course not. You…”
Agnes smirked and brought her hand to his cheek. “You do, and that is fine. You would not be the first. And you shall not be the last.”
“I do not think awful things of you,” Henri said. “I question… but that is the extent. I know you as a fine lady. Your service to Anjou has shown that…”
He trailed off for a moment, trying to gather his words. Then he continued. “I want to please you. I know it is necessary for a woman to enjoy laying with a man for a child to be born of the union.”
Agnes rolled her eyes. She had heard that, but doubted its truth. After all, Haldora certainly did not care for her father, but was about to birth another child all the same.
And it did little to calm her doubts that he did not think well of her. He likely just wanted a son.
Perhaps he was of two minds. He had his qualms, but he also had to know he was not likely to do much better than the daughter of Duke of Anjou, sister to the Duke of Aquitaine.
But she was confident enough her experience could lessen his other concerns…
Just a light touch was enough to cause him to tremble. Pressing herself against him revealed his excitement. A few more gentle kisses later and she was pulling him toward the bed.
“Lay back husband,” she said.
The words were strange, but comforting all the same. She did not expect Henri to be a good lover, not at this point. But Alearde was right about one thing - it would be nice to finally be with a man and not have to worry about the consequences - whether she enjoyed herself or not.