((Am I in prision? Damm. I was going to say I fleed to Ecuador and became a farmer of bananas... Sigh... I think I will try to survive, but chances are I will be executed))
So, this is how things ended for me... I will gladly die for my ideals. You are still thinking Nanban are bad. However ships and trade failed because we didn't have the resources. What didn't we have them? Because our land isn't enough, and we should have traded for resources. China and Korea are good choices. I hate those Brits, the Americans, those French... They're barbarians, and I think we shouldn't try to be diplomatic with them. However, as I said before, I think we should learn of their example.
Will the Shogun have mercy for me? I think he won't. I blasfemed against our Emperor, though I was only saying he's no god in political deals, but in spiritual ones. I said we should become a democracy, a republic or whatever. I just want a better Japan. A better, stronger, militaristic and democratic Japan, and I still want that. I won't retract. That would be against my ideals. But I want to live. My dream is still not fullfilled. I can't do anything. Also, and finally, don't you think that exiling me, letting me to see how Japan continues traditionalist and isolating itself, would be a worse punishment? Though I'm an atheist, I'm prating right now. I don't really want to live because life is good, I want to live to fullfil my dreams. I don't care about myself, nor about someone else. I don't have family, and my only living family is death for me. So, I'm begging for clemency. If the Shogun decided to fullfil my wish, I won't interfere again. I still want a better Japan, but that can wait.