The Little Cub
Part 18 - Heart's Desire
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Margaery was proven innocent by the Gods and I had no other option but to let her walk free. Ser Robert - revealed to have actually been Gregor Clegane - had died fighting against Lord Garlan Tyrell. I was not sure which disturbed me the most; that my silent giant had actually been killed or the fact that he wasn't alive in the first place. I did not remember the Mountain from the old days, yet I had heard stories about his past deeds and crimes.
How was he allowed to become a Kingsguard?, I soon asked myself. When I confronted Lord Commander Jaime about the matter, he only said he wasn't at the capital when it happened and that Qyburn had been behind his appointment. The former Master of Whisperers had been imprisoned after sending letters about my origin, and according to Jaime he had died some three years later in the dungeons. Apparently Qyburn had done something to Gregor Clegane to keep him alive despite the poisoning by Oberyn Martell, and the fact that he hadn't died was kept a secret. How Qyburn had managed to do that, I'd most likely never get to know. I couldn't help but to think whether my mother was aware of who or what Ser Robert was when Jaime told me she had backed Qyburn's suggestion to make Ser Robert a Kingsguard.
Though Margaery got to keep her life, her time as the queen was over. I approached the High Septon, asking for his blessings for a divorce. I was friends with the man more or less, considering he'd both knighted and crowned me. The High Septon understood the situation and though the Seven had decided to spare Margaery's life in the trial, it was clear the realm would fare better with a new queen. Once it was decided, Margaery left the capital along with his father and brother, Garlan. Ser Loras was bound by the Kingsguard vows and had to remain in King's Landing despite everything that had gone down between me and his family. I tried to speak about the matter with him, yet the Knight of Flowers told me Kingsguard was his family now. I understood his reluctance to talk and took his word, not questioning his loyalty despite the recent events.
Grand Maester Medwick, a Tyrell as well, was dead. The word about it had reached Oldtown and now they replied, telling that the Conclave of the Citadel had gathered and selected a new Grand Maester from among their ranks. The man had aboarded a ship from Oldtown and would no doubt soon arrive to the capital. The Small Council was full of new members and I only hoped they would know what they were doing. I had acted without hesitation when I was sick, yet now I came to regret some of the decision I made back then.
Mace Tyrell was an important ally and deserved to be treated better. Though I had destroyed the relations between the Iron Throne and House Tyrell, not all of Reach despised me for that. I could only hope Lord Mace couldn't gather all his lord behind him, knowing he would not be satisfied until I had paid for my insolence.
He's a proud man from a house that wants to grow stronger still.
The new Grand Master arrived not long after and I invited him to my chambers to make acquaintance with him. Robert, the man's name was. Though traditionally maesters didn't go by their family names, I asked Robert where he was from and learned that he was a Frey from the Twins. His house had grown bold during the reign of Late Lord Walder who was infamous for having murdered Robb Stark and most of the Young Wolf's loyalists under his roof. Though the Red Wedding had ended a war to my favor, I couldn't help but to despise House Frey for its past actions. The singers had made a sad song about the demise of the Young Wolf and the dead Starks had gained sympathy even from those they initially rode south to fight against.
Robert was young, still in his twenties and it surprised me that a man of that age had been chosen to take the position which traditionally belonged to the most able of the maesters in Citadel. The first impression I got of him was not pleasant; the man lacked all the manners. At first I pondered if the Archmaesters were joking on me, but later I came to realize that Grand Maester Robert was actually talented at his work despite the flaws he had in social skills. Whatever had gone down in the Twins during War of the Five Kings had nothing to do with Robert who had been in Oldtown at the time and so my skeptic opinion about Robert slowly began to crumble. Besides, the man was a Maester now and bound to serve the realm.
I was young during the War of the Five Kings and only afterwards was old enough to understand the things that happened back then. The men beside me remembered, however, so I did my best to understand better the circumstances. After all diplomacy was a game of relations, and relations were highly affected by the past. Grand Maester Robert had been in Oldtown during the Red Wedding, but my courtier Roslin Frey had been there personally so I confronted her about the matter. Edmure Tully's wife and the mother of my ward was a true beauty despite the fact that she was already in her late twenties. She told me about what had happened at the Twins, saying she knew beforehand what was going to happen but was unable to make a difference. Once the bedding was announced, she'd started crying. The memory clearly disturbed her, and I did my best to soothe her. One thing led to another, and I soon found myself from a bed with her on top of me.
I acted without thinking that evening, a thing which I later came to regret. I was no longer married yet she was. Roslin was the mother of my ward, and if we had been caught, it could've meant an end to my plans for the boy's future and a huge blow to my reputation. But as mentioned, I didn't care at that moment and only followed my instincts. Though what we did was very inappropriate, the thought of it being wrong and risky only made the moment more enjoyable. For whole my life I'd done exactly as was required from me and never had had the chance to actually be a child and break the rules. Perhaps there was a bit of foolishness of youth in the air, as old people tend to say. Though at first I presumed it'd be only one exceptional evening, it later became a custom and I found myself from next to Roslin on other nights as well.
I had not forgotten the promise I made myself back in Harrenhal. Everything that happened had gotten me to forget the fact that I was actually a bastard and not related to King Robert Baratheon despite sharing his name. Now that things were cooling down, I had to make the decision.
I have forgiven Jaime and accepted the truth. But is the world ready to hear it? Or does it even need to know it? Living in a lie wasn't something I aspired for, yet if I revealed the truth and abdicated the throne, what would happen? Stannis had taken the black and Lord Commander Jon Snow had bestowed the Eastwatch-by-the-Sea to him. The only other living Baratheon besides him was King Robert's bastard Edric Storm, who according to my spymaster Mathin currently resided in Lys.
The next night was long. After Roslin had fallen asleep, I laid awake and didn't get sleep. As the sun rose and let out it's first lights, I still hadn't slept. Stannis Baratheon had started a war over the throne only because it was his by right. I wanted to consider myself a just ruler, yet I was ruling over lands that were mine unjustly and bedding a woman that wasn't mine. I wasn't Stannis, though. His campaign had cost thousands of lives and even still it had been to no avail. If I did what was just, it'd send the realm back into chaos and more lives would be lost.
No. The world doesn't need to know the truth. I had never expected to sit on the throne. I always imagined Joffrey would be the king, but fate proved otherwise.
Even if I am not a king or a prince, I'm still a grandson of Tywin Lannister and the rightful heir to the Westerlands. But that seat also was lost, granted away to Melwyn Lannister of Lannisport. I didn't feel regret for that decision, though. I was a bastard, so my claim was questionable anyhow.
I am in my position unjustly, put here by others when I was too young to understand who I actually was or what kingship meant. But now that I am the king, I can make sure justice is served to everyone else. I had already taken the first step towards that by appointing Ryan Tully as my ward. The next step was across the Narrow Sea. I grabbed a quill and ink and found myself writing a letter to alleged half-brother.
First the Riverlands, second the Stormlands.
Damon Arryn, the heir of Lord Paramount Harrold Arryn arrived to the capital on a ship from Gulltown, escorted by twoscore guards from the Vale. My other ward Ryan was a few years older than Damon, but the heir of Vale was already better at swordsplay. According to what I had heard, he'd inherited that from his father. The boy was cautious at first and it took me time to win him over. He was but a child, sent away from home to an unknown place where he didn't know anyone. I sympathised him and did my best to make him feel welcome. I also made sure he'd share a room with Ryan Tully, hoping they would grow close like brothers. What union would be formed between them now would last a lifetime, I knew.
Deciding who should take late Ser Robert's place in the Kingsguard was a difficult matter. There seemed to be no proper highborn men with needed skills for the position, so I ended up offering the white cloak to a lowborn man from the Shield Islands. Omer, a boy from Ashford had volunteered to march against the Ironborn invaders several years ago when Crow's Eye still ruled the Iron Islands. This Omer had gained glory in battle despite his young age and after the Ironborn were driven away, he'd stayed in Oakenshield. I did not know the man personally, but word about his virtues and talent in swordsplay were enough for me.
It wasn't the first time I had given a chance for a lowborn to rise high. Lord Morgan Rundell of Chyttering Brook had initially been a lowborn as well, but I had given him a lordship due to his talents in diplomacy. Now that Margaery Tyrell had left the capital, the seat of Master of Laws was empty. I decided to send a word to Chyttering Brook and soon Lord Morgan joined the council as a replacement.
With Margaery put aside, I was in need of a new wife. Though my affair with Lady Roslin had carried on for quite a while, I didn't love her and had known all the time that at one point I'd have to stop our game of pleasure. There were not many notable ladies-in-waiting in the capital, so I had to turn to my councillors for advice on the matter. Margaery had been a great match, and it seemed I could not broker as great marriage; Lord Harrold's, Lord Roose's and Lord Melwyn's daughters were far too young for me. Lady Lyssa Baelish would've been an ideal match, yet I already had plans for her and the Riverlands. If possible, I would marry her to my ward Ryan and restore House Tully to its rightful seat as the Lords of the Riverlands. Arianne Martell was older than I was with six children already, some of them rumoured to be baseborn. Even if they would've been of age, I doubt she would've let me marry one of them, knowing the hate the Martells had for me and my family.
I did not even consider House Tyrell, assuming it was out of question after our fall out. When my councillors suggested trying to repair the relations between the Reach and the Crown with another marriage, I couldn't help but to chuckle at the thought. Lord Mace had gotten another daughter, Arysa, with his wife, though her origin was in question due to Lady Joy Hill's affair with Lucas Tyrell. Still, the girl was but one year old whereas I had seen eighteen namedays. However my spymaster Mathin pointed out that Alla Tyrell, a distant relative of Mace Tyrell had lost her husband and had not remarried yet.
At first I wasn't sure where I'd heard that name before, but then I realized we'd met years ago. She'd been but a shy young girl, a lady-in-waiting and Margaery's escort to the capital. Not long after my wedding to Margaery, she'd returned to the Reach to marry some son of a lord. I didn't remember anything else so Mathin filled in the rest of the details. Her husband had been Ser Josua Willum, the heir of Smallwood, a small county north-west of Highgarden. She had a four years old son Dickon and a two years old daughter Leonette, after whose birth Josua had soon fallen sick and died untimely at the age of 27. Mathin assured me Alla had grown into a true beauty and was still young enough to bear more children.
So she's pretty and fertile.
I decided to send a message to Highgarden, asking Lord Mace if our families could be reunited with marriage. Alla wasn't a close relative of his, yet she still had the same family name.
The rest of Westeros will not care even though she's Lord Mace's second cousin's granddaughter as long as I have a Tyrell beside me. The marriage wouldn't fix my relations with Lord Mace and I did not expect to get him on my side after everything that had happened, but it didn't stop me from trying. I was positively surprised when Lord Mace replied that he accepted the proposal.
The next few weeks passed as the Red Keep was prepared for the royal wedding. Lords from all around Westeros were invited to pay witness to the event which was going to be as lavish as my brother once had. My first wedding had been only modest and even then it had taken years before my marriage with Margaery had been consummated. I was a child back then, yet the time had molded a man out of me.
That, and Ser Balon. I had led men victoriously into war, yet winning all battles didn't end the war to one's favor. Robb Stark had proven that right and I meant to learn from his mistakes. Marrying Alla was not a solution to all my problems, yet it was the best option I had in taking a step towards a more solid kingdom.
When she finally arrived, escorted by Lord Mace Tyrell and his retinue, I was taken aback. The shy maiden I remembered from my childhood had grown into a woman who was a delight to any man's eyes. I welcomed them both warmly, but though Lord Mace acted courteously, there was coldness in his eyes every time he looked at me.
He despises me for what I did, yet knows what holding grudges openly will do no good to anyone. He had not brought Margaery with him, but when I asked from her father how she was, he shortly replied
''She's well.''
Other guests arrived as well. Lord Melwyn Lannister and my ward Damon's father Harrold Arryn were among the many nobles that came to the capital. The reunion between the Arryns was a touching thing to see. When the boy asked where his mother was, Harrold told him she'd stayed in the Vale to look after Damon's other siblings. I didn't blame her, knowing she had bad memories from the capital. There were numerous people alive back from the old days when she was but a traitor's child and a hostage. Yet what was past was past and I would've wanted to say it to Lady Sansa by myself.
She has no reason to fear me as long as the Vale doesn't march again into a war to press her claim.
Once the day was upon us, guests gathered in the throne room for the wedding. I awaited by the steps of the Iron Throne, dressed in clothes of fine black silk with golden ornaments while Ser Leo Tyrell walked his daughter down the aisle. Lady Alla wore a blue gown which afterwards was the subject of several comments and compliments. She had been beautiful when we met upon her arrival, but now, dressed in her best and all eyes of the room upon her and a shy look on her face, she was the most beautiful sight I had ever seen. I could feel my heart beat once she finally stopped beside me. The High Septon began his speech, yet I could only look into the eyes of the woman in front of me and forget everything else for a moment. We exchanged our vows and I draped a black cloak with a golden stag on her shoulders, bringing her officially into my protection and into my house. My eyes turned to Lord Commander Jaime for a short moment which felt like eternity.
The whole Red Keep seemed to have come to life. The throne room could only hold a few hundred people, yet the highborn guests had brought other people with them. Servants, guardsmen, family members.. The wedding feast didn't take place only in the throne room, but fires burned all around the Red Keep and wine flowed all day long. I wasn't there to see it, yet that was how it was planned. I sat beside Lady Alla most of the feast, exchanging words with her in attempt to get to know to her better. She was a quiet person who only spoke when she had something to say and even then shied about how I reacted.
She's the opposite of ever-flattering and quick-witted Lady Margaery, I came to realise. It created an aura of mysteriousness around her whilst her beauty captivated me. I did my best to make her feel comfortable and welcome to the capital, acknowledging this was the woman I had to live with possibly for the rest of my days.
Once the feast had been going on for some time, I offered to take my wife to dance. She looked at me for a moment in silence, unsure if she wanted to, but finally my smile melted her uncertainity and she took my hand. Together we had the first dance and soon others joined in. After three dances, Ser Loras came to request if he could be given the honor of having the next dance with my wife. I agreed and thought it was a good idea that Ser Loras got a moment with her, considering he was a kin of her and would be staying in the capital as well. I moved away from them and asked Lord Melwyn Lannister if I could borrow her wife for the next dance. Alysanne Lefford, Lady of the Golden Tooth was close to fourties and almost ten years older than Lord Melwyn - and pregnant besides. Still, we shared a dance and chatted for a while. I took other highborn women to dance as well and though forming relationships with distant nobles what I had in my mind, I nevertheless had a good time and I think everyone else enjoyed the feast as well.
Once the celebration had been going on for a while and the guests were more or less in their cups, Lord Arryn - who was more drunk than most - began to shout for a bedding. Other guests took up the cries and banged their cups against the tables, and I let them shout for a moment and just grinned at the sight. Then, finally I emptied my cup and hit it on the table in front of me and the people took it as a sign of approval, making noise twice as loud as before. Some guests got up to their feet and made their way to my and Lady Alla's table. I turned to the woman sitting beside me and jokingly wished her good luck. She chuckled and then the guests grabbed us both.
As the tradition was, women took care of the husband and men took care of the wife. I was slightly drunk, but sober enough to worry if Lord Harrold would remember not to get too friendly. The Lord of Vale was known to drink and fuck around a lot, and Lady Sansa was not here to look after him. The man was already in a bad shape, and I tried to spy the men carrying her to no avail. The crowd around me was too numerous, and the women seized the moment now that they had a king to strip naked. They made jokes and I tried to reply to them as any young man would after having taken a few cups of wine. I recognised the faces of Tyene Sand(wife of my Master of Coin lord Ormund of Farring Cross), Lylos Slynt(Jonos Slynt's unwed daughter), Lady Jocelyn(Ronald Bolling's wife), Lady Amerei Frey(Lord Lancel Lannister's widow) and Lady Jonquil Chyttering among the skirtfolk who were escorting me. Of course without forgetting Lady Roslin, who winked at me with a smug grin on her face when our eyes met.
The women carried me out of the throne room and I could hear cheering all around me. The drunken revellers of low birth had gathered outside and roared at the sight. Thankfully the women hadn't been all too quick, and I still had my trousers on although my shirt had been torn off somewhere along the way. For now I'd been carried by highborn women, but now the number of my escort tripled as the common girls joined the fun. Someone offered me wine, and I had a passionate kiss with the bottleneck. After the long swig I took, the wine was robbed from my hands and to my surprise I could see the women pass it on to one another. It was not everyday that you saw a highborn woman drink straight from a bottle, and I chuckled at the sight. My laugh ended abruptly when I felt something below. I turned my gaze down there, noticing that Lady Roslin had slipped a hand into my trousers to the other women's amusement. I pulled her hand out of there and with a teasingly voice said to Roslin:
''Apologies, my lady, but my cock has duties elsewhere.''
Despite that I lost my trousers once we reached the gates of the Holdfast. I spotted my master-at-arms Brienne of Tarth, standing by the portcullis, towering over the other women as usual. The look on her face was priceless once she noticed I wasn't wearing anything. Once we finally reached the chamber that had been prepared, Lady Alla already awaited in bed, hiding under the covers. Most women had stayed outside, and what few men still remained from Alla's escort were already dispersing from the room. The women let me down beside the bed, and I thanked them courteously for the ride and gestures at the door. Lady Roslin gave me a grin and closed the door after everyone else had left. We'd stopped our affair once my marriage with Alla had been decided, and she respected my request to remain quiet about the whole matter. I didn't mind the gazes she took or the grins she gave me, allowing her that much at least.
I belong to someone else now and she knows it.
I turned around and joined Alla in the bed.