Book Six Chapter Twenty-Eight
Ahh, Valentine's Day! An appropriate observance for a brief meditation on how lust can become something deeper.
Naturally, there will stand here the obligatory NSFW warning for the explicit nature of the opening text.
(Also, if you're a native speaker of Czech or Slovak, please kindly forgive my atrocious attempts at rendering 'the throes'. If Google Translate is any indication, I will happily forgive you if you want to bust out a great big ROFLMAO at my authorial expense.)
TWENTY-EIGHT
Twice Lost
9 May 1342 – 22 January 1345
‘Da! Da! Ublízovaaaaaaj-áj-áj!’ Katarína moaned. ‘Tam! Tam! Da, iŝi—táááám! Iŝi! Iŝi-iŝi-iŝi-iŝi-iŝi!! Mírko, končajúúúúú—!!’
Radomír held Katarína firmly on either side of her rump. Katarína’s voice kept coming, but her urgent ululations stopped making sense. Her deep red muff thrust up hard against his nose, her thighs spread as wide as they could, and her hips flexed in strong, pulsing paroxysms. Radomír couldn’t help but be struck with awe as she welled up like a bubbling spring in front of his face. Beyond the rotund womb in front of him, he heard Katarína gasping in long, contented breaths.
Radomír slid his body up beneath one of her splayed legs until his face was level with hers. She turned gingerly in his arms, so as not to disturb the baby, and embraced him with tender gratitude and affection, kissing his neck.
‘I love what you do for me,’ Katarína breathed sleepily, her face beaming with afterglow.
‘Told you I’d keep spoiling you… especially when you’re pregnant.’
‘Hmmm… you did.’ Katarína smiled. Then she reached down between his legs, began stroking and working him underneath, and whispered: ‘Chočeš ožby ja zossála tvuj? Budu gľogati ho dľa tebe.’
A tempting offer indeed! Radomír got rock-hard again as soon as that promise left Katarína’s naughty, hardworking little mouth. She was certainly enthusiastic and thorough in returning his favours, though they might land her as long as a three-year fasting penance later when she confessed. And Radomír had to admit he liked how she taught him all sorts of off-colour Russian lingo in bed. But…
‘Ďákuju,’ he told her, holding and kissing each of her hands in turn before sitting up, ‘but not tonight. I’m afraid business can’t wait. The Local Zbor will be meeting in Olomouc in about a week, and I still haven’t made all of the arrangements.’
Katarína sat up. ‘I could help you with that, too! I have no doubts about your ability to keep the bishops and monks happy with the courtly niceties, but let’s be honest—I’ve always been more astute on matters of doctrine than you have. If you want some pointers—?’
‘Thank you,’ said Radomír gratefully.
‘It’s the least I can do for my drúžinový little diplomat’s tongue,’ Katarína glowed. ‘Really.’
Over the next few days, Katarína tutored her husband and primed him on all of the relevant points of Church discipline and canon law that would be discussed at the upcoming Zbor. Radomír had had little idea of how contentious Orthodox churchly authorities could become over even (what he considered) very small differences of opinion! The current Zbor would debate—that was the polite word for it—the new teachings of a certain priestmonk named Grēgorios of Thessaly.
This priestmonk’s doctrines concerning private inward prayer and the repetitions of the name of the Lord were under the scrutiny of several honoured Constantinopolitan prelates and clerical court officials including the Chief Archivist. The direst of the accusations levelled against him, was that he was resuscitating the old Euchite heresy of the Peter the Wolf.
‘I don’t understand,’ Radomír sighed in frustration. ‘All these doctrinal positions and subtleties are so many angels dancing on the head of a pin to me!’
‘No, this is crucially important,’ Katarína told him. ‘What is at stake is the actual monastic practice. The monks in Athos, Mount Sinai and Strandzha who practice the inward Prayer of the Heart, rely on the doctrine of the Uncreated Light, the Energy of God. This Thessalian priestmonk has merely made that doctrine explicit in his writings.’
Radomír still shook his head.
‘It all seems so much clearer to me if I think of it this way: the princes of Thessaly and Moldavia have gained a pious reputation for sheltering these monks, and the Byzantine Emperor sees them as a threat to his customary claims. If the Emperor can discredit these monks, it will be easier to reunite Thessaly and the Bulgarian lands under his rule.’
‘You’re not seeing with the eyes of faith,’ chided his wife. ‘There is more than just a power struggle going on here. This is a matter of how the Holy Spirit imparts to us. In this case, Thessaly and Moldavia happen to be on the correct side, supporting the monks.’
‘And you do see with the eyes of faith,’ Radomír wondered.
Katarína considered. ‘I can thank God for a couple of natural virtues. Like a good Russian girl, I’m willing to work. And I’m willing to submit myself to a husband. But I’m very much so a sinner, a slave of the passions. I can only hope our Lord can use what He finds good in me to His good, and that He will have mercy upon me for the rest.’
Over the weeks and months which followed the Zbor, the Kráľ learned from the Kráľovná. She taught him of history, mathematics, physics, alchemy, and of course the queen of the sciences as well. Radomír, although not as deeply literate as his wife, was nonetheless a quick and eager pupil, and he learned a great deal under her tutelage.
Katarína gave birth once again: this time to a son, a strong, healthy, red-headed little lad whom they named Prisnec. Prisnec was the apple of his father’s eye, though even as an infant he was already crawling off out of sight, climbing upon anything climbable, or poking into corners where he wasn’t welcome. It was certainly a handful to keep track of him!
Katarína’s menses returned the following May—once. And then they did not return again. Having birthed three children did not diminish her appetites in the slightest. Indeed, Radomír’s faithful ministrations to her when she was pregnant only whetted her fleshly appetites. And soon she was bearing their fourth inside her. But—alas for this child’s fate!
Radomír awoke one chilly October morning, alone. He could not find his wife anywhere.
He called, and called—and searched, and searched. But for a long time Katarína was not to be found. When at last she answered, he found that she had locked herself in the toilet on the upper east wall of the castle; and that she had done so since the night prior.
‘Leave me be!’ she called out to him. There was a note of anxious strain in her voice.
‘Can I help?’ asked Radomír.
‘Nït! Nït!’ she cried desperately. ‘Próšu—prósto ujdi!’
Radomír, crestfallen, walked away from the door. It was several hours before Katarína appeared again. She was blanched pale, and she walked stiffly as though in pain. Radomír noticed also that her hand went to her back several times. There were some drops of half-dried blood on the hem of her skirt. She did not look at Radomír or speak to him—instead, she sought out her mother-in-law Lodovica. The next time Radomír saw Katarína, her face was streaked with what he knew to be angry tears.
‘Kaťuša…’ the young king reached out to her.
But she recoiled from him, as though his touch burned her.
Radomír was gobsmacked. He felt abandoned. But what he was still rather too young and too naïve yet to realise, was that Katarína—far from having rejected him!—was in fact bearing her grief hard upon herself. She blamed herself, and was furious with herself, for having lost their child. She even felt as though God was punishing her, cursing her, smiting her for the sins of her passionate imagination, which she carried with her into the bedroom.
It was nigh on a fortnight before Katarína would face him again. She still looked pale and drawn—and by now the bump which had begun to form had vanished, just as the little life inside had. She shuffled toward him without a word, and then collapsed on Radomír’s lap and fell apart. Her body wracked itself with sobs. Radomír didn’t say anything back to her. Awkwardly at first, he patted her on the back and shoulders, and gently stroked her long, tousled red hair. That was exactly the response she needed. She clung hard to his torso, like a frightened forest animal gripping a steady branch of a tall tree.
Katarína kept to their room most of the time. Many days she didn’t even get out of bed, except to feed Svietlana and Prisnec, or sing them to sleep. But Radomír was patient and gentle with his wife. And when he encouraged her, he did so softly and with kindness. Katarína didn’t always respond right away. The hurt was still within her, and would not leave. But the hole in her heart left by the unformed departed child, she found was filled by Radomír and their three other children in unexpected ways. Radomír’s tenderness didn’t rid her of the pain of loss—nor, in fact, did she find (to her surprise) that she wanted it to. The loss would always be there: but not having to bear it alone, made bearing it that much easier.
Radomír, too, found his appreciation for his queen deepening. As a teenage male, of course he was overjoyed with a wife of Katarína’s wild libido. But in her grief, he was discovering that his love for Katarína was far deeper than mere desire. She had a heart within her, one that suffered all of a mother’s suffering, and he found to his surprise that he revered her for that.
‘I never took you for a man of commerce, milord,’ Živoslava commented after a long and meandering discourse with the king on the subject of mining prospects in the Tatras, during the Christmas feast that year. ‘Yet I’m pleasantly surprised at how well you grasp the basics. Tell me, where did you learn it?’
‘I haven’t yet,’ said Radomír with uncharacteristic modesty. ‘Well—let’s just say I’m still learning it. You know my wife, she’s amazing not only at housekeeping but at managing all sorts of ventures, commercial and domestic. Honestly, most of my efforts these days have been aimed at trying to keep up with her!’
The townswoman made a satisfied cluck. ‘Well. You’re always finding something to spark your interest in your spouse, if you’re wise—and lucky. I daresay she’s a lucky woman herself to find a husband who puts the effort into understanding her! I remember when my man was alive…’
Her eyes took on a misty look briefly, before she shook her head and returned to her subject. ‘Well, as I was saying… it’s all a matter of finding the right people. You can’t just send any corvée into the mountains with some clueless peasant or other at their head, and expect to turn a profit working a copper vein up there. One needs a man of skill—and of risk.’
Radomír nodded sagely. ‘Both rare qualities.’
‘Yes, you do understand,’ Živoslava grinned. ‘Don’t give up on either of those qualities, O Kráľ.’
Vladimír Mikulčický had furnished forth the table with all of the usual festival delicacies—meats and cheeses galore, naturally, for the season—but he was truly munificent with his wine and mead during this week of merrymaking. Radomír found quickly that he had to be careful how much he imbibed—and also how often he let his spymaster see him when his goblet was empty, because he would always ensure that it was refilled, and take offence if he didn’t match cups with the desired gusto. Still, Christmas had been well-spent: Radomír resolved to keep up his correspondence with the burgomistress he had befriended in Nitra.
And when he returned home, he was greeted with enthusiasm by his wife, in her usual manner.
Radomír straightaway began to swap letters with the burgomistress Živoslava. In hers, she gave him a number of useful pointers on how to evaluate a new venture or building project, as well as how to keep track of official expenses. He found these little exhortations and stray bits of advice to be, at first, a bit overbearing—but the Slovak woman was nothing if not warm and genuine, and following her pointers very rarely led him astray.
It was therefore something of a surprise when, at the mention of Živoslava’s name in the Zhromaždenie, the normally people-pleasing Vladimír—her own liege lord—grew unaccountably cold in his aspect. On questioning him, evidently Vladimír thought her to be something of a schoolmarm and a spoilsport.
After the council session had ended, Radomír drew Vladimír aside and began recounting to him each of the projects and household improvements she’d been advising him on… how they had kept the coffers full, and how even Queen Katarína had come to approve of her methods.
‘You might well consider taking advantage of some of her knowledge yourself,’ the Kráľ advised his vassal. ‘Her manners might be a bit townish, but one can’t argue with her results, or with her general goodwill. If she’s lecturing you, it means she thinks you’re worth teaching.’
‘Is that so?’ asked Vladimír. He didn’t look too convinced, at first—but his visage had softened considerably, and he seemed better-disposed now to think well of her advice, if not of the lady herself.
~~~
Katarína sat on the edge of their bed, looking silently and distantly out the bedroom window. Radomír swept softly to her side when he saw the tears glittering on her face.
‘It happened again,’ she said hollowly. ‘I lost this one, too.’
‘I’m sorry,’ Radomír told her softly. ‘I’m so sorry.’
This time, Katarína didn’t snatch her hand away from his. Instead, she availed herself of his shoulder, and unburdened her eyes of their floods as they came. Radomír held her for a long time. And for a long time after that. And even though she knew he couldn’t take away the pain and grief from her, she knew he would hold her, and hold that pain together with her.
Naturally, there will stand here the obligatory NSFW warning for the explicit nature of the opening text.
(Also, if you're a native speaker of Czech or Slovak, please kindly forgive my atrocious attempts at rendering 'the throes'. If Google Translate is any indication, I will happily forgive you if you want to bust out a great big ROFLMAO at my authorial expense.)
TWENTY-EIGHT
Twice Lost
9 May 1342 – 22 January 1345
‘Da! Da! Ublízovaaaaaaj-áj-áj!’ Katarína moaned. ‘Tam! Tam! Da, iŝi—táááám! Iŝi! Iŝi-iŝi-iŝi-iŝi-iŝi!! Mírko, končajúúúúú—!!’
Radomír held Katarína firmly on either side of her rump. Katarína’s voice kept coming, but her urgent ululations stopped making sense. Her deep red muff thrust up hard against his nose, her thighs spread as wide as they could, and her hips flexed in strong, pulsing paroxysms. Radomír couldn’t help but be struck with awe as she welled up like a bubbling spring in front of his face. Beyond the rotund womb in front of him, he heard Katarína gasping in long, contented breaths.
Radomír slid his body up beneath one of her splayed legs until his face was level with hers. She turned gingerly in his arms, so as not to disturb the baby, and embraced him with tender gratitude and affection, kissing his neck.
‘I love what you do for me,’ Katarína breathed sleepily, her face beaming with afterglow.
‘Told you I’d keep spoiling you… especially when you’re pregnant.’
‘Hmmm… you did.’ Katarína smiled. Then she reached down between his legs, began stroking and working him underneath, and whispered: ‘Chočeš ožby ja zossála tvuj? Budu gľogati ho dľa tebe.’
A tempting offer indeed! Radomír got rock-hard again as soon as that promise left Katarína’s naughty, hardworking little mouth. She was certainly enthusiastic and thorough in returning his favours, though they might land her as long as a three-year fasting penance later when she confessed. And Radomír had to admit he liked how she taught him all sorts of off-colour Russian lingo in bed. But…
‘Ďákuju,’ he told her, holding and kissing each of her hands in turn before sitting up, ‘but not tonight. I’m afraid business can’t wait. The Local Zbor will be meeting in Olomouc in about a week, and I still haven’t made all of the arrangements.’
Katarína sat up. ‘I could help you with that, too! I have no doubts about your ability to keep the bishops and monks happy with the courtly niceties, but let’s be honest—I’ve always been more astute on matters of doctrine than you have. If you want some pointers—?’
‘Thank you,’ said Radomír gratefully.
‘It’s the least I can do for my drúžinový little diplomat’s tongue,’ Katarína glowed. ‘Really.’
~~~
Over the next few days, Katarína tutored her husband and primed him on all of the relevant points of Church discipline and canon law that would be discussed at the upcoming Zbor. Radomír had had little idea of how contentious Orthodox churchly authorities could become over even (what he considered) very small differences of opinion! The current Zbor would debate—that was the polite word for it—the new teachings of a certain priestmonk named Grēgorios of Thessaly.
This priestmonk’s doctrines concerning private inward prayer and the repetitions of the name of the Lord were under the scrutiny of several honoured Constantinopolitan prelates and clerical court officials including the Chief Archivist. The direst of the accusations levelled against him, was that he was resuscitating the old Euchite heresy of the Peter the Wolf.
‘I don’t understand,’ Radomír sighed in frustration. ‘All these doctrinal positions and subtleties are so many angels dancing on the head of a pin to me!’
‘No, this is crucially important,’ Katarína told him. ‘What is at stake is the actual monastic practice. The monks in Athos, Mount Sinai and Strandzha who practice the inward Prayer of the Heart, rely on the doctrine of the Uncreated Light, the Energy of God. This Thessalian priestmonk has merely made that doctrine explicit in his writings.’
Radomír still shook his head.
‘It all seems so much clearer to me if I think of it this way: the princes of Thessaly and Moldavia have gained a pious reputation for sheltering these monks, and the Byzantine Emperor sees them as a threat to his customary claims. If the Emperor can discredit these monks, it will be easier to reunite Thessaly and the Bulgarian lands under his rule.’
‘You’re not seeing with the eyes of faith,’ chided his wife. ‘There is more than just a power struggle going on here. This is a matter of how the Holy Spirit imparts to us. In this case, Thessaly and Moldavia happen to be on the correct side, supporting the monks.’
‘And you do see with the eyes of faith,’ Radomír wondered.
Katarína considered. ‘I can thank God for a couple of natural virtues. Like a good Russian girl, I’m willing to work. And I’m willing to submit myself to a husband. But I’m very much so a sinner, a slave of the passions. I can only hope our Lord can use what He finds good in me to His good, and that He will have mercy upon me for the rest.’
Over the weeks and months which followed the Zbor, the Kráľ learned from the Kráľovná. She taught him of history, mathematics, physics, alchemy, and of course the queen of the sciences as well. Radomír, although not as deeply literate as his wife, was nonetheless a quick and eager pupil, and he learned a great deal under her tutelage.
Katarína gave birth once again: this time to a son, a strong, healthy, red-headed little lad whom they named Prisnec. Prisnec was the apple of his father’s eye, though even as an infant he was already crawling off out of sight, climbing upon anything climbable, or poking into corners where he wasn’t welcome. It was certainly a handful to keep track of him!
Katarína’s menses returned the following May—once. And then they did not return again. Having birthed three children did not diminish her appetites in the slightest. Indeed, Radomír’s faithful ministrations to her when she was pregnant only whetted her fleshly appetites. And soon she was bearing their fourth inside her. But—alas for this child’s fate!
Radomír awoke one chilly October morning, alone. He could not find his wife anywhere.
He called, and called—and searched, and searched. But for a long time Katarína was not to be found. When at last she answered, he found that she had locked herself in the toilet on the upper east wall of the castle; and that she had done so since the night prior.
‘Leave me be!’ she called out to him. There was a note of anxious strain in her voice.
‘Can I help?’ asked Radomír.
‘Nït! Nït!’ she cried desperately. ‘Próšu—prósto ujdi!’
Radomír, crestfallen, walked away from the door. It was several hours before Katarína appeared again. She was blanched pale, and she walked stiffly as though in pain. Radomír noticed also that her hand went to her back several times. There were some drops of half-dried blood on the hem of her skirt. She did not look at Radomír or speak to him—instead, she sought out her mother-in-law Lodovica. The next time Radomír saw Katarína, her face was streaked with what he knew to be angry tears.
‘Kaťuša…’ the young king reached out to her.
But she recoiled from him, as though his touch burned her.
Radomír was gobsmacked. He felt abandoned. But what he was still rather too young and too naïve yet to realise, was that Katarína—far from having rejected him!—was in fact bearing her grief hard upon herself. She blamed herself, and was furious with herself, for having lost their child. She even felt as though God was punishing her, cursing her, smiting her for the sins of her passionate imagination, which she carried with her into the bedroom.
It was nigh on a fortnight before Katarína would face him again. She still looked pale and drawn—and by now the bump which had begun to form had vanished, just as the little life inside had. She shuffled toward him without a word, and then collapsed on Radomír’s lap and fell apart. Her body wracked itself with sobs. Radomír didn’t say anything back to her. Awkwardly at first, he patted her on the back and shoulders, and gently stroked her long, tousled red hair. That was exactly the response she needed. She clung hard to his torso, like a frightened forest animal gripping a steady branch of a tall tree.
Katarína kept to their room most of the time. Many days she didn’t even get out of bed, except to feed Svietlana and Prisnec, or sing them to sleep. But Radomír was patient and gentle with his wife. And when he encouraged her, he did so softly and with kindness. Katarína didn’t always respond right away. The hurt was still within her, and would not leave. But the hole in her heart left by the unformed departed child, she found was filled by Radomír and their three other children in unexpected ways. Radomír’s tenderness didn’t rid her of the pain of loss—nor, in fact, did she find (to her surprise) that she wanted it to. The loss would always be there: but not having to bear it alone, made bearing it that much easier.
Radomír, too, found his appreciation for his queen deepening. As a teenage male, of course he was overjoyed with a wife of Katarína’s wild libido. But in her grief, he was discovering that his love for Katarína was far deeper than mere desire. She had a heart within her, one that suffered all of a mother’s suffering, and he found to his surprise that he revered her for that.
~~~
‘I never took you for a man of commerce, milord,’ Živoslava commented after a long and meandering discourse with the king on the subject of mining prospects in the Tatras, during the Christmas feast that year. ‘Yet I’m pleasantly surprised at how well you grasp the basics. Tell me, where did you learn it?’
‘I haven’t yet,’ said Radomír with uncharacteristic modesty. ‘Well—let’s just say I’m still learning it. You know my wife, she’s amazing not only at housekeeping but at managing all sorts of ventures, commercial and domestic. Honestly, most of my efforts these days have been aimed at trying to keep up with her!’
The townswoman made a satisfied cluck. ‘Well. You’re always finding something to spark your interest in your spouse, if you’re wise—and lucky. I daresay she’s a lucky woman herself to find a husband who puts the effort into understanding her! I remember when my man was alive…’
Her eyes took on a misty look briefly, before she shook her head and returned to her subject. ‘Well, as I was saying… it’s all a matter of finding the right people. You can’t just send any corvée into the mountains with some clueless peasant or other at their head, and expect to turn a profit working a copper vein up there. One needs a man of skill—and of risk.’
Radomír nodded sagely. ‘Both rare qualities.’
‘Yes, you do understand,’ Živoslava grinned. ‘Don’t give up on either of those qualities, O Kráľ.’
Vladimír Mikulčický had furnished forth the table with all of the usual festival delicacies—meats and cheeses galore, naturally, for the season—but he was truly munificent with his wine and mead during this week of merrymaking. Radomír found quickly that he had to be careful how much he imbibed—and also how often he let his spymaster see him when his goblet was empty, because he would always ensure that it was refilled, and take offence if he didn’t match cups with the desired gusto. Still, Christmas had been well-spent: Radomír resolved to keep up his correspondence with the burgomistress he had befriended in Nitra.
And when he returned home, he was greeted with enthusiasm by his wife, in her usual manner.
Radomír straightaway began to swap letters with the burgomistress Živoslava. In hers, she gave him a number of useful pointers on how to evaluate a new venture or building project, as well as how to keep track of official expenses. He found these little exhortations and stray bits of advice to be, at first, a bit overbearing—but the Slovak woman was nothing if not warm and genuine, and following her pointers very rarely led him astray.
It was therefore something of a surprise when, at the mention of Živoslava’s name in the Zhromaždenie, the normally people-pleasing Vladimír—her own liege lord—grew unaccountably cold in his aspect. On questioning him, evidently Vladimír thought her to be something of a schoolmarm and a spoilsport.
After the council session had ended, Radomír drew Vladimír aside and began recounting to him each of the projects and household improvements she’d been advising him on… how they had kept the coffers full, and how even Queen Katarína had come to approve of her methods.
‘You might well consider taking advantage of some of her knowledge yourself,’ the Kráľ advised his vassal. ‘Her manners might be a bit townish, but one can’t argue with her results, or with her general goodwill. If she’s lecturing you, it means she thinks you’re worth teaching.’
‘Is that so?’ asked Vladimír. He didn’t look too convinced, at first—but his visage had softened considerably, and he seemed better-disposed now to think well of her advice, if not of the lady herself.
~~~
Katarína sat on the edge of their bed, looking silently and distantly out the bedroom window. Radomír swept softly to her side when he saw the tears glittering on her face.
‘It happened again,’ she said hollowly. ‘I lost this one, too.’
‘I’m sorry,’ Radomír told her softly. ‘I’m so sorry.’
This time, Katarína didn’t snatch her hand away from his. Instead, she availed herself of his shoulder, and unburdened her eyes of their floods as they came. Radomír held her for a long time. And for a long time after that. And even though she knew he couldn’t take away the pain and grief from her, she knew he would hold her, and hold that pain together with her.
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