Chapter II (cont.)
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Missouri, August 1861
Sonny Gamble sat at the edge of the lake and wrote in a new journal his mother had recently given him.
August 30, 1861
This is the first page of this log that my dear mother has given to me. I do not know what to write other than what has been happening in my life. I hear there is to be war after all. My father is against it, but my brother has gone to fight so we all are very worried about him.
It has been four months since federal troops fired on the fort in South Carolina and the other southern states have left the Union along with them. Missouri has not. My father told me that federal troops have entered the state in the north and are pushing south towards us. He says they could pass through any day. My uncle says that the Governor of the state has been replaced by federals and that he is now fighting with the state militia. My brother and cousin are both fighting with him. I hope he is going to be safe and not get killed
My grandfather has not been feeling well the last couple of days. He says his head hurts him all the time. This worrys me to. He is my mothers father and it worrys her also. I have been by myself lately. I help my father in the fields, but he is not like himself. He seems like he is somewhere else. Maybe he is thinking about Dinny too.
I just wish this war gets over soon and Dinny and Will can come home…
Before Sonny could finish the last sentence, he was startled by the sound of a horse coming closer. He looked around and finally saw a rider approaching him from the north. Scared at first, he quickly realized that the rider was his best friend Thomas Bowers. Standing to greet him, he soon noticed that Thomas did not appear to be coming for play.
Thomas Bowers stopped and jumped down from his horse. “Hey ya Sonny. Thought I’d come by and say goodbye before I left.”
Sonny looked at Thomas’ horse and realized that he had strapped bedding and other travel supplies to his saddle. “Where ya off to?” Sonny asked him.
“Well…um...” Thomas started to answer but seemed reticent to come to the point. “I…uh…well Sonny…I’m gonna join up.”
“Join up? What you mean? We ain’t old enough to fight.” Sonny said, still confused.
“Well, I ain’t gonna fight, I don’t figure…but maybe they’ll let me be a runner or some such…maybe an aide to an officer.”
“Why you wanna do something like that? You could get killed Thomas…don’t you know that? My da says men are already dyin’. Shoot, the Confederates already lost a ton a men over to Virginia and Union troops have already started taking ground in Manassas.”
“I know Sonny. And I want to help them?”
“Ain’t much you can do to help them. They’re on the run, dummy. Sides, you may be a decent shot, but you’ll go runnin’ scared when them bullets come flyin’ at you.”
“You don’t understand Sonny. Ain’t the Confederates I’m helpin’. I’m headin’ up to St. Louis to join up with Colonel Blair and the feds.”
Sonny was shocked. How could this be? His very best friend was going to join the Union Army and fight against his own brother. “How could you?” he asked in disbelief.
“Ain’t personal, Sonny. I just gotta do it. You know we talked about the slaves before and I think we can do something good if we can get ‘em their freedom.”
“But that ain’t it, Thomas…how could you fight against us?”
“Us? You decided you’re rebel?” Thomas asked flatly.
“Rebel? The Confederates didn’t start the damned thing. The President…our President called up troops to invade our lands. And you’re gonna help ‘em!” Sonny said as he was quickly becoming incensed at Thomas.
“Look…don’t wanna fight with ya, Sonny. Just wanted to say I’m leavin’ and fare thee well. Don’t know if I’ll get to see you again and I wanted you to know there ain’t no hard feelin’s. I didn’t realize you had decided to go with the rebels, but seein’ as how your brother an cousin are fightin’ with ‘em, I guess it makes sense.”
Sonny just stood there, not knowing what else to say. His first instinct was to hit Thomas, but he knew that was not the answer. He wanted to keep questioning his friend and convince him not to go. But he realized that this too would be a fruitless endeavor. He looked up at the sky and remembered many days by this lake with Thomas, sunny and peaceful just like this one, and he feared they would never have another day like that again.
“Sonny…I got to go. It’s a long ride up to St. Louis. I’m sorry…you know you’re my best friend…but it’s what I gotta do.”
Sonny extended his hand and Thomas took it. They started to shake but quickly Thomas pulled him forward and gave him a hug. Sonny could feel the fear in Thomas and realized that Thomas knew he might not live through the war if he joined up. Thomas adjusted his coat and got back onto his horse. With a smile, he turned it around and took off at a gallop.
Sonny looked after his friend and though he was angry with him, also felt a feeling of pride that he would be willing to make such a sacrifice. Just like his brother and Will. He still did not know which side was right in this conflict, but he saw bravery and admired it.
He picked up the journal from the ground and started walking back towards the farm, thinking all the way. He made it down past the barn and was about to head up the road towards his house when he heard another horse. Thinking maybe it was Thomas again, he quickly reeled around. Instead of his friend, he saw his cousin Will riding up with his arm in a sling.
Running quickly to meet him, he hollered out, “Will! Boy, are you a good sight. What are you doin’ back here?”
Will slowly came to a halt and got down off his horse, tying the reins to a post. “Long story, and I’ll tell you all about it when we get up to the house. But the General gave me some leave on account of a shot-up arm.”
Sonny became worried. “What about Dinny?”
“Aah, he's alright. Come on, let’s go back to the house and I’ll tell you what’s happenin’.”
They walked up the road and entered into the Gamble house. Everyone was surprised and overjoyed at seeing Will, gathering around and hugging him endlessly. Sonny was told to run and get his Uncle Mac and Aunt Clara. He did so and soon the family was sitting around the parlor as Will told them all what had transpired with the war in Missouri since he and Dinny had left.
“It’s been pretty hairy, that’s for sure. Me and Dinny got signed up and stationed with General Price, one of the Governor’s men. We were a pretty small force by ourselves, but soon an Arkansas brigade and some boys up from Louisiana joined us. Them boys are tough, let me tell ya. The Federals have crossed over the Missouri and took Jefferson City ‘bout a month ago.”
“Yes, we heard that news,” Kinchen said with a grim face. “What of Dinny?”
“He’s a right hero, Uncle Kinch. We already seen some pretty tough action. Not much after we were drilled and trained, which weren’t but about two weeks, we were sent to try and hold Springfield. Ended up meeting some of them Yankee boys up by Wilson’s Creek. This was about three weeks ago. We was camped close by and were told that federals were approaching and to form a line. Me and Dinny were part of the center line and as we marched forward, we were met in a cornfield with them not fifteen yards away from us.”
Will’s mother pulled out her handkerchief to blot her eyes as she began to cry and Mac tried to comfort her as Will continued,
“When we first come upon ‘em, they hollered out and asked if we was volunteers and we yelled out that we sure were. They seemed to scoff at that and that only made us more determined. Them boys had rifle-muskets and most of us only had them old smoothbores, but we gave ‘em a pretty darn good fight. See, we was hidden in some old brushwood and the federals couldn’t see us rightly and they was out in the open, so we had a pretty good advantage over ‘em. But that didn’t last long since the smoke from the guns killed any chance we had of seeing who we were shootin’ at. They tried to move off our flank, but we countered ‘em pretty good and we just kept going back and forth with fire. We got ‘em pretty licked, cause when the smoke started clearing, we saw more of ‘em on the ground than was standing. And we had them ‘ol buck and ball shots so it whipped ‘em up pretty good. We was so confident at our stand, we yelled out ‘How about volunteers now!’ and that just made 'em even more mad. They started yellin’ for us to come out in the open and one of our officers yelled out to charge, so we went out runnin’ with someone hollerin’ ‘Give ‘em steel boys!’ We charged right at ‘em with bayonets and their line was broke. We got into the thick of it pretty good and Dinny just kept takin’ one after the other like he was blessed or something. Nobody could touch him. It was a sight, lemme tell ya.”
Now it was Mary’s turn to cry, but Sonny was fascinated. He had never heard a story about real battle and it sounded exciting to him. He imagined what Dinny must have looked like in the middle of the charge and fighting like he couldn’t lose. He asked Will, “So where is he now?”
“Well, after the battle, them federals pulled back and General Price says we got pretty good control of the southeast at least, so we are all pretty safe right now. After we all got back into camp, Price went through the volunteers and asked if any of ‘em wanted to transfer into the Army of Tennessee under General Jackson since they was meetin’ with pretty stiff resistance from the Kentucky border and they was afraid that if the federals took Tennessee, we wouldn’t be able to hold out here. Dinny was one of the first to jump at the chance. I might have too, but I got hit pretty bad in the arm after we came out rushin’ and they wouldn’t take me.”
“Does it hurt, son,” Mac asked.
“Naw, not too much. Sides, they give me a couple of weeks leave and it let me come see you folks. Sure glad too ‘cause I missed you all somethin’ awful.”
“Well, we’re glad to have you home for a little while at least,” Mary said as she rose and started out towards the kitchen. “Now let’s get you something to eat. Clara, this boy needs some nourishment.”
Clara stood and went to Will. She hugged him hard and he winced when she pressed against his arm, but it felt good to have his mother’s arms around him. Clara kissed him on the check and then followed after Mary as she started to cry again.
After they had left the room, Will looked up at his father and Uncle Kinchen with a more worried look on his face. “Heard somethin’ else too, da. And it ain’t good.”
“What is it, son?”
“Well, some of the boys said they heard that Old Man Tanney had passed. That true?”
“We have not heard that news, Will, but we haven’t gone up to town much lately since we didn’t know if the federals had taken it or not. How long ago?” Kinchen asked.
“’Bout a month ago maybe…and the boys also said that they heard ‘ol Bill was working with a band of irregulars. Don’t know where, but you better watch yourself ‘cause they might be workin’ this area. Them irregulars ain’t regular army and they don’t follow rules like ‘em either. I can help ya while I’m still here, but I gotta get back to the regiment in two weeks. Just keep an eye out.”
“We will, son. Don’t you worry about us. You just try and keep safe, you hear?” Mac reassured him.
Kinchen followed, “Your da is right, Will. We’ll be just fine.”
After some time and more conversation, the women returned and said that food was on the table. The family ate together and talked of earlier times when life was not so complicated. It felt strange that Dinny was not there with them, but they were glad to have Will back, at least for a short while.
To be continued...