Think of the Children
Nienna stirred in her bed, unconsciously pulling her sheets closer as she slowly woke up. She laughed mutedly when she rolled over and saw Evhana staring intently at her. "Good morning. Am I interrupting something?"
Evhana sported a sly grin, hustling closer to Nienna, as she reached a hand up to caress her cheek. “It’s been nineteen years now.” She said with a faint whisper.
Nienna smiled and reached out to embrace Evhana. “Nineteen good years I think, despite some issues at the start. I hope that you’ve enjoyed them as much as I have.”
Evhana pulled herself closer into Nienna’s embrace, gently pressing her lip against the queen’s throat. “Immeasurably. We were young, lost, perhaps didn’t even know what love was. More eager to explore, and I hurt you when I didn’t even know what hurt was. Still…” She started to kiss her from the base of her neck, moving upwards towards her chin. “...the beauty has remained untouched…” Slowly Evhana’s hand disappeared from view, making its way under the covers.
Nienna gasped before giggling quietly. “I’m not quite so sure I would say untouched…” She moved her hand from Evhana’s back to her chin, raising it until their lips met. “We both made mistakes, there’s no need to dwell on them though.”
Evhana closed her eyes as her fingers kept finding their way over Nienna’s skin, and responded eagerly with another deep kiss, breaking it other with chuckling tease. “Long forgotten. A past now left unseen. For we were all young, and that is what youth is for. To try our mistakes. Besides… We had no one to tell us whenever we did them. No one to tell us what was right, what was wrong. My parents were already gone, and my sister was as well. Your father had untimely perished, and war and doom ever looming over our heads. Our children are lucky to have what they do.” Evhana raised her other hand to comb Nienna’s long red lustrous hair from her face, gently leaving a peck on her nose.
Nienna smiled, her face beginning to become flushed. “Of course they are, and that’s why we fought all those years ago, no? So that they could have what we couldn’t?” She laughed. “So far as I can tell they haven’t yet made any mistakes to compare to everything that happened when we were their age, thank the Light.”
Evhana gave another teasing grin, as she found the aim for her hand, seemingly spurred by Nienna’s face blending in colour with that of her hair. “We’ve always kept this a secret for the world, however. Not brash and openly flaunt with our perceived affections. It’s all and only our own.”
“I...it is not as if I wouldn’t want to tell others,” Nienna frowned slightly. She had nearly insisted on just the opposite long ago, but had been convinced otherwise. “You’ve said yourself though that it wouldn’t work politically. It doesn’t mean that I care about you less.” She tightened her embrace slightly as she tensed up, suddenly worried about where exactly the conversation was leading.
Evhana looked into her eyes more focused than before, leaving her hands exploration to hold her hands clasped over Nienna’s cheeks. “I wouldn’t dream of thinking any such thing. It took as long for me to realize I deserved this, and yet, I still lie here in awe over my damned luck. I am wholly and dutifully yours, my queen. I wouldn’t be half a soul without you.” She turned her serious grimace into smirk. “And I am not going to let my liege have an… Unfulfilled awakening.” Evhana giggled. “But not before she had her tea.” Evhana pressed her lips against Nienna’s, the sweet fragrance of her breath escaping into her nostrils. She slowly left her side and stood fully naked before her, as she walked across the room to pull over the dress she had worn for court the night before.
Nienna brushed her hair back from her face as she sat up in the bed and kicked the covers away, clad only in a simple thin nightgown. “So very considerate Evhana.” She laughed quietly. “I do suspect that you’d have gotten along just fine without me though honestly. Now, where I’d be without you, that’s another question entirely, though not one that I’d like to imagine.” The number of times Evhana had saved her from some issue, had helped to protect the kingdom, could scarcely be counted.
Evhana scoffed as she put the kettle over the fireplace. “I had one husband that rather damaged my flesh than actually raise it to any prominence. My second husband haven’t ever shared bed with me once. Clearly, you are rating me too great, and yourself far too abysmally. And it wasn’t the Therain of Mirrorwater that held our people together in those Dark years and beyond. I merely kept them within.” She raised a finger. “I could allure many, but people like your brother? You need a more pleasant touch I would assume.”
Nienna scoffed playfully, reclining against a pillow. “Ah, but you may never have married either of them if not for me. Besides, I’m not saying that you would have all the world at your feet, but I have faith that you would have managed. Still, I will take the compliment I think, so thank you.”
“Unless you’d wish to break my heart.” Evhana said with a grin, impatiently touching the kettle to heat it with her own flame. “I have no grand dreams. I want what is best for my children, and I want what’s best for our folk. Lavish crowns, luxury or fine meals be damned. I care for naught. It’s my blood I’m content to look after for.”
“A good attitude, to be sure, but the fine meals and crowns are quite nice as well.” With a laugh she moved to the foot of the bed, laying on her stomach as she watched Evhana heat the tea. “Honestly though, more people should think that way, I suspect there would be far less conflict if they did.”
By the whistle of the kettle, Evhana forced her mesmerized gaze from the queen and started to pour the hot water in cups, placing them on a gold plated silver tray. She sprinkled the herbs into the water, and brought over it to the bed, lying down with her feet to the left, staring into the ceiling. “I don’t ever think we’ll see a world such as that. We all dream it, but it’ll never come to pass. We’ll never be fully safe.”
Nienna shifted closer to her. “Well of course not, one could slip and fall getting into their bath. But we are safe enough, no? Galadriel has had peace for more than a decade and our people are free to live their lives as they see fit, for the elves from the Golden City that was only a dream.” She shrugged slightly, kissing Evhana’s cheek as she took one of the cups. “It’s not perfect, no, but things are much better than they used to be at least.”
The therain blushed, and with a wide smile leaned her head to the side, patting meaningfully at her own neck open and bare. “It is a small comfort, but how long can we keep that world for them? The more time other realms have had to rebuild, the higher grown has their ambitions. How do we keep ourselves out of their greedy paws, and keep their eyes fixed on other realms? We can’t have commitments, strings attached. And that Dwarf High King isn’t growing any less stubborn. Twice I approached him with parcels of Elven friendship, bartered over Yurdaest beneath any sense of dignity, yet he insist he will sit safe under his mountain, alone, on his cold, throne of quartz, and sand or stone or whatever he now fancy for jewelry.”
Nienna happily took the hint, taking a sip of her tea to heat her lips before beginning to slowly kiss her way along Evhana’s neck. “Is it such a worry? We have friends in both the Norselands and Ecclesitus.” She nipped lightly at the skin near her jugular. “Not to mention Ordivantes. As you say, the dwarves are content to sit under their mountains, and I doubt Hroniden pays us any mind.”
Evhana, gasping, squirmed with delight, as her pulse strongly echoed against Nienna’s lips. Squinting her eyes, she let all her defenses down, as her speech slowed down and hushed in its wake. “It is as we wish it… But we can’t say our neighbours neighbours will say the same. Hroniden may not care for us, but surely not the same can be said for Ecclestius or Highathar? Will the Nords contend with the intervention of my sister’s husband in their civil war? Will Ordivantes stay docile, while the Wildlands lay open for them to take? We inspire for no invasion, but allies? Can we afford sending our people to fight in another’s war?” She gently raised a hand to brush at Nienna’s crimson hair, weak and nearly paralyzed by her lover’s touch.
Nienna continued to kiss her, egged on by Evhana’s reaction, as her hand slowly moved down her spymaster’s body. “You may be right about that, I have no interest in fighting unnecessary wars.” She laughed slightly, pulling her head back to smirk at Evhana. “You’ll recall though that it’s your sister that married the king of Ecclestius, not mine, though she did come close.”
Continuing to enjoying herself, Evhana curled upon the bed, fixed in her place. “We both wish the best for our blood… And we are here to make sure our young don’t make the same mistakes we did. Isn’t my sister the very symbol of mistakes and bad decisions an echo throughout her entire youth? A youth she still suffers from? Those ties are strained for every passing year it seems. I don’t want that for your sister, and I wouldn’t want that for your son or my niece either.” She opened her eyes to seek out those of her queen’s.
Nienna raised her eyebrow, clearly amused as she continued her ministrations. “And what do Armas and Anwën have to do with this? Surely neither of them are seeking Varian’s hand in marriage.”
Evhana giggled, taking a pause to let out a moan. “She’s adorable, my niece, but one thing she’s never mastered is the art of silence. All she talks about seem to your boy, unless nonsense from her imaginations or books she’s been too distracted to fully read. We can’t let that happen. They’d easily fall in the Orc’s clutches I’m sure, used as pawns in his chess game played in a castle out of air. You’d want that for your son?”
“I’d want him to be happy, and to be a good ruler. As near as I can tell spending time with Anwën is the only thing that gets him to leave the library, that or his workshop.” She shrugged. “Besides, Anwën will be the Therain of Green Chasm one day, are simply not supposed to trust her because of who her father is? If anything I’d think that their relationship makes her less likely to be swayed.” She rolled off of Evhana looking at her more seriously.
Evhana sighed, sitting up at the bed’s end, lifting one of the cups of tea and sipping at it slowly. “I would like to think it so. But if we made mistakes in our youth, what prevents them from adhering the same? It only takes a little spark to ignite a fire, a small sidestep, a few encouraging words whispered behind the veil and out of our reach. Anwën still grew up in a Human court, with Human intrigue. You think she’d not be open to her father’s influence? The only thing Ra’Gru has taught us is that he cannot be trusted in any single way. He betrayed whom he fought for twice, betrayed your trust, betrayed his order’s sacred call for a crown, and worked for fifteen years to consolidate his hegemony over his people and their ruling class. You honestly think that should just be forgiven or even forgotten? Elves don’t have the luxury of being so easily fooled as the Ecclestians, so why open our realm to such blatant risks?”
“I honestly think that you worry too much.” Nienna’s grin slowly faded as she considered Evhana’s point. She loved her son and Anwën and wanted to be sure she that she did what was best for them. “But what would you expect me to do, even if I did agree? Tell my only child that he can no longer spend time with a girl that he clearly cares for, a girl who is more than just the child of Ra’Gru mind you. How could I do that to him while you and I sit here together nearly every time you come to Coal?” She sighed, brushing her hair from her face. “Besides, I still think that she’s a good influence on him, a king cannot spend all of his time shut away.”
With another sip, much deeper this time, Evhana leaned herself back towards the bed, looking up at the ceiling once more, growing increasingly interested with a speck of it at a time. “He’s the scholarly sort, isn’t he? Much for reading of history and workings of both magical and natural things?”
Nienna nodded. She had never much enjoyed studying the likes of history and math, though she did at her mother’s request. Armas on the other hand spent nearly all of his time with his nose buried in one book or another, something she just couldn’t relate too. “I don’t mean to imply that it’s a bad thing of course, he’s curious and bright, but yes, scholarly is probably the polite way to put it.”
“What if…” Evhana placed her tea down, adjusting her collar as she started to braid her hair. “What if you’d rather than send him from his point of diversion, to study the things he only read about in reality. A pilgrimage, if you may. A way to sate his appetite for knowledge rather than sating it with her?”
“It would be good for him, yes, but…” She hesitated, considering her words. “I doubt he would appreciate the thought, and it still means separating them, which I’m not entirely sure is for the best. I could not honestly say how close they are, but would you have been okay if my mother had tried to keep us apart. I’d have been furious with her.”
Evhana laughed. “Except for us being an unnatural match? Of course she would had tried to separate us. That’s what makes us work. All we have to focus is us, and our love. Not children, not marriage, not politics or what our families think of us, for we already know what they’d think of it.” Evhana sighed, and threw her hair over her shoulder, as she corrected her sleeves. “We’ve survived countless days apart from each other. It ached, but it survived. And there is no faulting us from setting boundaries for our blood. In that age, they need it, and even more so with such a heavy match… It’s clear that it is too early to trust them with their own emotions on the matter regardless.”
Nienna folded her arms across her chest. “Perhaps...Maybe I will speak with him, discuss the possibility of him spending some time outside of Coal, seeing other parts of Agorath, to further his studies.” She sighed before nodding to Evhana. “I suppose you’re right too, that they could do well to spend some time apart, it may be for the better truthfully. A few months couldn’t hurt a relationship that is actually mean to last.”
Evhana nodded in return, as she straightened her dress. “And let us hope their adventures take a different course…”
The door handle rattled, as the locked door was being approached from the other side. Evhana darts up from the bed, as the rattle is followed by a knock. “An urgent letter from Highathar, my queen.” Said the voice behind the door. “Do you want me to slide the letter underneath the door or would you read it for breakfast?”
Nienna quickly pulled the sheets around herself despite the door between her and the messenger. With a laugh she got out of bed and reached for her discarded dress from the previous day. “Under the door will be fine, thank you.” The letter was slid under the door, its paper brown, yellowed and torn, as if its journey had been tumultuous and in a great hurry.
Evhana sighed with relief. “I won’t soon forget when that Saxon duke rushed into our chambers because of an unhinged door. I’ll go wash my face while you deal with your affairs.” Evhana moved to the side room to clean in the water basin.
Nienna chuckled as she slipped out of the nightgown and pulled her dress over her head before crossing the room to the letter. “Though of the possible alternatives, I’d say that our Saxon friend was really one of the best to have rushed into the chambers. Certainly better than Ra’Gru or Ainikii, no?” With a chuckle she bent down to retrieve the letter, inspecting the seal.
Meanwhile, the splash of water could be heard from the other room. “The Saxon has all the same to hide. He would know what would happen should he had spoken between his lips. And being the friend he is with my sister, I doubt he’d wish me any more harm than I want him. The others… I have no idea what I’d do if they had known.”
Nienna smiled as she began to read the letter. “Nothing good I expect. My self, I’d…” She fell silent as she skimmed through the letter again, shocked. “E-Evhana?” Her voice shook as she spoke, barely above a whisper.
Evhana stepped out of the bathroom, clad in a wide brilliant smile as she had finished adorning herself. “As good as new, for a good new day, don’t you think?” She said as she held out her arms.
“I-I don’t...you need to see this…” She held the letter out, her hand shaking as she did. “I’m sorry…”
Evhana, with a puzzled look, took the letter and started to read it intently, holding it at an arm’s length to compensate for her farsightedness. She sported a curious smile as she continued to read, ending it with a chuckle. “No.” She said, assuringly, before the paper quivered in her hand, dropping to the floor. “No.” In a heartbeat, her knees had given up on her, as she fell down to the floor without a word. Elu was dead.