Over the last couple of days ive been really busy, so i havent had the time (first actual 8 to 5 work ever, poor little academic Mulli
) to let this all sink in.
Thing is, i havent experienced death in my life, except for a grandfather many years ago, and it becomes even more surreal when it happens across a computer screen. Daniel called me a friend, but i have always had a problem with online friendships. If you havent spoken and heard his or her voice, or met him or her face to face, how can you possibly know who this person is?
Add to this my fear of being too stuck in the online world and its friends, so that you dont want to go out into the "real world" and its "real" friends.
Yet he had an extraordinary personality. Set in his ways, yet almost always in the right when he put his foot down, he gathered many indignant players against himself. But there were also people that respected him for his incorruptibility and morals. During the time he played in the community, eu2 MP changed. He ushered in discipline which had been missing for years; it was once more obvious that people should arrive on time for sessions and take their responsiblity for the game's survival. Daniel was confident that is was possible to win in this game, which was one reason for him to come up with the Power Ratings of the stats thread. He was also a wizard at the engine, creating massive economic empires that few could oppose. In the last game i played with him, he already had victory in hand after the first couple of sessions, thanks to a faultless cooperation with Portugal as Spain. There are few Spains in the history of eu2 that have been played to such a level. You could say the same of his Sweden, OE, Moldavia etc..
Recently, in the Swedish game, we started talking over Teamspeak, so the players could hear each other's voices. Aside from raising the effiency of the sessions, the players also became more like real human beings. I had spoken to Daniel over a period of years and even though i refrained from calling an online "acquaintance" a friend, he had become quite the permanent personality on the boards i frequent so much. When you talk directly to someone, instead of through the key-board, many misunderstandings dissapear. It was now quite obvious that the rough, controversial Daniel A that many players had reacted and even flamed against, was not the true person. This was a funny old man (compared to my own age at least
), highly intelligent, educated and extremely easy to talk to.
So in the end, i suppose i saw him as a friend.
Rest in Peace, Daniel A. We will miss you.