The rumble of artillery had stopped for awhile and the battlefield had gone back to its eerie silence. The local Mexican landscape was by now, weeks into the Spring Offensive a landscape that very much resembled the moon. Impact craters from the high velocity shells on both sides had created a vast area where movement became slow and unsteady. Inside on of these holes was Private Wade Johnston. His company had attempted to attack the Mexican lines the day before but it had been halted with heavily casualties. Many of the men who hadn't fallen dead or injured had made it back to friendly territory but Wade hadn't.
He and his best friend Jeremiah had taken shelter inside a large crater and a quick glance out revealed that any chance of escape was gone. The Mexicans had a clear line of sight on any escape attempt. The only chance they had was to stay in the hole and wait for help...if it ever came. That was yesterday, they had no food now and the knots in their stomachs were becoming pronounced. Discussion over the morning revolved around when their fellow soldiers would return to save them but as noon approached the talk began to become more pessimistic.
"Do you think they?re gonna come for us Wade?" There was a hint of fear in the voice of Jeremiah, the reflection in his eyes only reinforced the hunch.
"Yeah they'll come for us, I mean they got to know we're missing by now and if they don't the next attack should come tonight and then we can get out of here" Wade only half believed that himself but he knew that giving ground to pessimism would lead nowhere.
"But you've seen men be abandoned before, remember those bodies we found last week in the shell hole? No wounds on they at all and one of them had wrote a farewell letter to his mother. He thanked god he?d at least get an open casket. I don?t want to be one of those Wade, I can't stand the thought of dying out here starving to death. And we can't move or anything! Its just NOT FAIR!"
The outburst only served to alert the Mexicans and a short burst from their machine gun was unleashed followed by the sound of several men laughing. Wade knew a little bit of Mexican having spent his first few years growing up in southern Texas, and he could hear several vulgar taunts coming from the Mexicans as well.
Jeremiah had a point though, they had found that man - dead in a shell hole. But that couldn't happen to him though could it? His fellow soldiers would come back for him right, they'd promised before the Offensive had begun. Jack, Dryden and several of the other men had all said they'd be there for the rest of their squad mates. Where were they now when help was needed most? Irregardless he needed to calm his friend down.
"I know its not fair, but we've got to keep our heads cool. We aren't gonna die anytime soon from starvation, and that gives us plenty of time to wait for the next push by our guys. Just don't worry we won't end up like that other guy." His friend only looked at him and slowly nodded. No more was needed and they spent the afternoon quietly trying to clean their rifles in the mud that had clogged the weapons during the night before.
Sleep overcame the both of them as soon as the sun set, the anxiety of the situation had caught up with them and the response was to apparently get some rest. Wades dreams were restless. One moment he'd see the battle again in vivid detail, the screams of wounded men and the shouts of the officers to move forward. The next moment thought he was with his mother, she was still young in the dream and they were playing in their yard - lost in the innocence of an age now long gone.
Alas the sleep would not last forever and the first rays of sunlight crept over the edge of their hole he awoke. Jeremiah was already up and was staring at him.
"I could hear you moaning in your sleep Wade. What were you dreaming about?" Asked Jeremiah.
"My parents. I was playing with my mother while my dad looked on." He could see the sun rising into the sky and above him drifted a few birds lazily, it was a beautiful scene played out against the hell struck landscape he and Jeremiah were caught in. He could only wish that they would leave this place unscathed.
"They didn't come last night Wade, you said they'd come but they didn't. They must think we are dead and they aren't going to come back." The fear that Wade had detected the day before was back but now it wasn't masked at all. His friend really thought they were going to die out here, starving while everyone else already thought they were dead.
"We can't give in to pessimism; you heard what General March said before the Offensive. Our forces aren't going to give up until we break though the Mexican lines, no matter the cost. Our men will be back, its just a matter of time." Hopefully Jeremiah would calm down, the machine gun burst the day before had only rattled his nerves more. If they were stuck in here for another day he didn't think Jeremiah could take it.
Once again that ended the conversation and with rifles already clean they had little to do. After lunch however they began to talk again, this time not about their situation but about more personal things. It seemed that Jeremiahs father used to be in the army and that he looked up to his father. When war broke out Jeremiah along with Wade had joined the forces quickly. Partly it was because of patriotism, but more so to make his father proud of him. They exchanged these kinds of personal details throughout the night until both of them drifted off to sleep again.
His dreams were more troubled this time, instead of the happy scenes with his family he was to relive the moment when he told his mother that he'd joined the forces to fight in Mexico. She'd cried then, outspokenly worried that he'd never come home. His father was mute on the subject but Wade knew his father respected his decision. As Wade awoke he found himself to be in a cold sweat and could hear heavy breathing where Jeremiah lay.
"The water, Wade there is water up to my knees!"
Bolting upright Wade saw that the cold sweat was in fact the hole now being slowly filled with water. This wasn't good, not only had they seen men die of starvation but drowning in these godforsaken holes as well. The fact that Jeremiah was afraid of drowning only made this new fact worse.
"We're gonna die Wade, I don't want to die. I'm only twenty! But we're gonna drown or starve here all because fucking Wilson decided we needed war because some Mexican dictator took the wrong tone. Its not fucking FAIR! And why do we have to die for this. I'm not going to die here." Wade saw that his friend was hysterical, he was about to calm him down but instead Jeremiah stood up and clawed his way over the top of the hole.
"No! Don't go up there Jeremiah!" His pleas only elicited a burst of rifle fire and the scream of his best friend. He was gone and now Wade was alone.
A few more days would pass and the hunger became too much for him. Wade could feel his body eating itself to find sustenance, and yet no one came. Resigning himself to his fate he grabbed the notepad he carried with him as well as his pen and began to write his farewell letter.
Dear Mother
Mother, by now I am resigned to my fate. I've been lying here in this hole for what seems like a month now and even Jeremiah has left me. The hunger has been clawing at me for days and I don't think I will last much longer. Every night I dream of you and the happier times we had together. I regret not saying good-bye to you when I left, for it seems I will not be home soon. Regretfully I also never said thank you for what you've done for me. Though I will die young, I will go out with a smile upon my face as I remember you.
Love Your Son, Wade Johnston
Finishing his letter Wade looked for one last time at the sky. Above him drifted a long eagle, one in the middle of the desert for no reason. Wade smiled - it was beautiful.