Why have you guys done this? Why have you banned me?
All I did was make it plain that I thought continuing was a big waste of time. Like I said on more then one ocassion all that continuing would accomplish is a total allied victory over Japan in 42 if i playa s well as I have so far. I tried to say this more then once and the group decided against a replacment and asked me to go on. But why should I give up several nights a week for the next 3-4 months to a game that I dont want to play?
It is totally unfair for you to kick me from vnet, then to change the password. Its pathetic, you never listened to my reasons or tried to udnerstand them instead you just got angry. I am under a lot of stress and you guys are giving me no leeway at all. I am sick, sicker then any of you can understand and I know you want to play most nights so I come even though I'm tired and weak. But to play a game thats totally disinteresting for me is a waste of time and not worth the effort. I am not keen to turn up for 3-4 months to play when I'm not enjoying it. We had only played 3 sessions to date it would make most sense to restart a new one, which you have done but you've banned me from it. I dont understand why, I did nothing wrong.
JH you owe me an apology, you attitude is surprising, what have I done to you? I'd like to see how commited and focused you would be whilst undergoing chemotherapy. You and me have had a problem from day 1 and I'd like to patch it up but its going to need effort from both of us.
Gunny you never udnerstand me at all and dont seem to want to make the effort to accomadate someone whos ill, if you cant be understanding then I guess I cant play in any games you are in.
Mighty, sorry I annoy you. I dont mean to but like I said I dont want to play as Japan and I wanted a new game. It would have been better for everyone to start a fresh game.
Major I spoke to you a few weeks ago about the way you treat me, you said youd rehtink it but you havent. Why are you so agressive and short with me?
Mike I'm surpised at you tonight. What did I do to have you do that to me? God I though we was getting on well.
Joel you understand me the most and I'm sorry I wasted your 3 weeks but you gotta see what I was on about.
The group owes me a collective apology as I owe the group. I am sorry I picked Japan, I shouldnt have as I wasnt ready to play them. The group has treated me grossly unfair and should be ashamed of itself. You were rude, insulting, totally lacking in understanding and unwilling to listen. What I was saying and doing was in no way unreasonable and your collective behaviour was unacceptable. We all need to calm down and I will endeavour to improve my behaviour and actions if the group will endeavour to display a modicum of understand for what I'm going through.
I am very upset by the way I been treated tonight and you should all be ashamed.
It is unfortunate that Australians who are a tolerant easy going group of people cannot show any understanding at all for a fragile person who is suffering from cancer. When you help me to cope, I do cope, when you treat me as you did tonight I go to pieces and it helps nobody. Understanding of my problems and help and kind words will let me play with you, if you cant do that I cant play any longer as it will be too straining on my health.
I am willing to forget all the difficulties that have happened till now if you guys can forget as well and give me a hand.

Yeah I know I carry on, I know I am abusive at times and talk far too much, theres a reason why, a good one but I dont want to share with you, Mike knows what it is. So lets go for a clean slate with everything and see how it goes, If I cant fit in I will leave ok?
And maybe I can join your new game as Hungary or soemthing next session as I am keen to play, its all about the game afterall and the game is fun.
P.S please dont tell me to practice in SP, I am unable to, did you guys know that I sleep for about 6 hours during the day so I am able to play with you at night? My health is so bad that I send my son to play at a friends place on non kindy days as I am too weak to look after him. My life is very empty right now and HOI games are all I can do for fun and I dont want to give it away so help me out please guys.