4 kilometers west of Chernigov
June 20, 1988
Nikifor awoke with a start, his eyes, wide with panic, darting around looking for the source of the danger and his hand instinctively going to his side, to his crude but effective combat knife. But, of course, there was no one there. Just other passengers made lethargic by the brilliant post-midday sun that was flooding through the windows of the train. Nikifor closed his eyes and took deep breaths, a shiver running down his spine as his hands settled gently back into his lap. His chest continued its rhythmic heaving as he opened his eyes again to look sadly out the window. The train was moving northward, following a course roughly parallel to the Dnepr River. Arsenij had left him some time ago to continue stamping tickets, having promised that he would return some time, he had not been sure about the time of his return and Nikifor did not press him for an ephemeral promise. He, however, wished that Arsenij was with him. He needed to make sure Arsenij was still alive and breathing. When he had fallen asleep after Arsenij left, he had dreamed.
He had dreamed of battle.
It had been the meat grinder, the first of many meat grinders. With the glorious victories to the north, it had been decided to push forward further south as well despite the growing catastrophe. It had been a fully mechanized battle; Nikifor’s subconscious filling in the greater details that he had not known of at the time. Twelve divisions took part, six on either side. The ground had already tasted some blood earlier, but the fighting had been quick then. This was the first of the meat grinders, where men died and charred vehicles devastated the once pristine landscape. The battle had avoided the main areas of inhabitation due to its mechanized nature; no one had wanted to be caught in a city and thus they ravished the rolling countryside.
Nikifor was advancing through fields of grain, crouching low, his unwieldy mosin nagant rifle snagging on the stalks of wheat at every opportunity. Nikifor was swearing under his breath, sweat forming on his forehead and gliding down to sting his eyes. He was not entirely sure where anyone else was; they had been on a reconnaissance patrol and a German counter-patrol had burst in amongst their loose formation and scattered them. Light German armor rode down at least one. Nikifor gulped. That was a terrible death. And Nikifor was lost, lost in a sea of grain from which he was afraid to escape. He was terrified of what he might find. There were sounds of battle far away, the steady thunder of self-propelled artillery. Nikifor scratched at his brow, shaking more sweat into his eyes and causing him to swear softly even more. His dirty hand rubbed his eyes, but fortunately no grit fell into them.
An indeterminate amount of time passed. The sun was still high in the sky, having frightened away any protective clouds and scorching the battlefield below. Nikifor was still slowly moving forward, still alone. The sounds of battle had been gradually growing louder, and greater in intensity. Something was happening, but Nikifor was still alone, still lost. Nikifor looked up at the sky ahead futilely, unsure whether he was praying for something or looking for any sort of signs of battle. His eyes staring deep into the benevolent blue of the sky, his foot stubbed itself on something and caused Nikifor to unbalance and fall forward and hit his head on the ground. Groggily, Nikifor’s hands clawed at the crimson dirt, taking fistfuls of it as he pulled himself back to his knees and looked at what he had tripped over. It was a corpse.
Nikifor gasped in horror and fell backwards away from it. It was wearing a Soviet uniform. It was a Russian. It was someone Nikifor knew. How he knew this, he did not know for he could not look down upon its face, but he knew that it had once not been a stranger to him. Nikifor remained seated on the ground, pulled his legs toward his chest and rocked back and forth, tears running down his grimy face and leaving clear tracks behind them. He could have stayed like that forever. But he did not.
A shrieking brought him back to his senses, a shrieking that ended with a thunderous explosion nearby that tossed Nikifor onto his side. Gasping again in horror, he automatically picked up his rifle before standing up to nearly his full height and dashing blindly forward. More shells emerged from the sky’s embrace, causing shockwaves that flattened grain. Nikifor did not care, he charged forward madly, without sense or reason. And then he was out of the sea of grain. The transition was so sudden that Nikifor halted on his tip toes, waving his hands as if he was about to fall off of a cliff. His eyes widened and his breathing quickened and became shallower. It was battle.
A German panzer tank was trundling forward, its machine guns blazing into the thick grain, scything much of it down within its arc of fire. A machine gunner was adding to the cacophony of noise and bullets, also directing its message of blood and death into the field. Other Germans waited grimly in their haphazard trenches, their rifles ready. One of them excitedly pointed at Nikifor, and Nikifor gasped as the soldier swung his rifle around to aim at him. Time seemed to slow down. A singular report shattered the dissonance of death by fire, the machine guns temporarily stopped as if in salute. Nikifor was thrown forward.
He landed with a heavy thud and a yell onto the ground, onto his rifle.
Nikifor awoke with a start, his hands pressing into his stomach and another gripping his shoulder tightly. He looked desperately around him, fighting an urge to flail his arms about wildly. Instead, he forced himself to focus, gradually, on the face in front of him. It belonged to Arsenij. Arsenij was holding his shoulder. Nikifor took deep breaths and forced himself to relax, to settle his back against the back of the seat. Arsenij smiled at him and nodded, much as a parent might do to a child just awoken from a nightmare, and then sat down next to Nikifor. He kept his hand on Nikifor’s shoulder.